Wonder Womaaaaan!!!!

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4vej3b3LFV8

When I was just a wee lil thing I would love watching Wonder Woman on tv! To this day, every time I see a woman wearing those cuff looking bracelets I think of how ridiculous they look, like they are trying to be like Wonder Woman and her bullet proof bracelets. With just a few spins she could transform, wearing this hot outfit, equipped with fabulous cleavage and all the powers needed to survive.

I'm feeling a bit like wonder woman these last few days!! I finally caved and agreed to start taking my anti depressants. Three psychiatrists later mind you. I've also started to take vitamin supplements like B12, B100 and D along with a multivitamin designed for "aging women's needs". The side effects of the antidepressants were my deterrent. "It will make you feel quite sleepy so take them before bed and very hungry so you'll have a noticed weight gain" says the doc, among other side effects. Like my husband says when I tell him, "Hell, why not just smoke a bowl"!! -I wish it were that simple!

Its just amazing how difficult it is to find a good mental health practitioner. The first one I tried was very knowledgeable, well educated, and had many years experience. But, I think the many years of experience thing has got the best of her.

She was more stressed out and burned out than ME!! She was acting like my worst day ever and to top it off,  she had an air about her like she was on some sort of "accellerant". At one point she was soo freaked out, in our first meeting, our second time speaking to one another, that she felt that I was in no way able to even engage in the process of EMDR that I should contact my doctor to be put immediately on an antidepressant and even accused me of being suicidal.

After trying to explain that I was not suicidal and how difficult it was to contact my doctor at the time, because he had just returned from a summer long bicycle ride across the country to bring awareness to SAD, she started to throw things around her office. She accused me of not really making any real attempt and offered to call my doctor herself.

After a very very long twenty minutes of getting the run around, the very same run around I had to endure every time I'd tried to contact my doctors office, as he was in the process of changing practice locations also, she LOST it. We were ten mins past our finish time and she had another client waiting. She was still on hold and when she finally got someone else back on the line she started screaming frantically that she's got one of his patients in her office that needs some attention and wants answers NOW!!! Still accusing me of being suicidal, she then informs me that she is legally responsible for my welfare and can not release me - and holds me hostage in her office!!! She's frantic at this point, yelling at me "how am I going to know that you are not going to walk out in front of a car on the way to your vehicle"??.

I am getting pretty scared of her at this point and start begging her to understand that there must be some sort of misunderstanding, that I am NOT that depressed, and am NOT suicidal and try to calm HER down. NOT the kind of help I was looking for!!! It was the worst case scenario!!

I now have the complete opposite. The woman I now see is a social worker and waaay too laid back. She's done nothing but lectured me in three sessions on how depressed I am and I really should be on medication. A good thing mind you, because I finally gave in and am felling the positive effects in just five days, but she's just not worth the money. She's kinda limp.

At least the first woman gave me some feedback in our first phone consult on how to deal with certain feelings, how to recognize triggers and taught me what was normal and what was not and a bunch of other valuable feedback info. You could tell that at some point in her career that she was was a dynamo, a kind of Wonder Woman herself, and was very well equipped to help me and others in the field of PTSD. Its a shame. My guess is that Wonder Woman really needs to stop spinning and rest those cuffs for a while and maybe even take the advise of "Ms. Limp" and take some meds herself!!!!